Yesterday was the first day in six months when I felt… a bit normal. When my anxiety subsided so much that I actually remembered how it is not to worry. It’s a bit like being in the rain and getting drenched and then finally finding an open door and stepping in but still hearing the rain behind you – just a little on the edge.
I just try not to think “what if” – what if seizure happen again or what if the anxiety come back etc etc. I’ve done 6 days of Headspace meditation and I keep working on my behavioural experiments in CBT to stop the thought process causing anxiety. I’m also trying to do things I enjoy and yesterday was baking day 🙂 Lemon buns and Polish fruit sponge with crumble on top. and today it’s sunny! 🙂 so that’s also my positives for this weekend 🙂